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Whom i maybe want to read this, they know in English, so I write it just in English.

I don't know what i want... I am dissapointed since I am back from my trip in Austria, switzerland, and basicly Sicily. All in my life I know what i want, and how to achieve it, but now...I feel I am 24 I should do something big, to find a place to stay, and not to still searching. Don't want to waist my time, but I feel I do it.

I didn't really recognise that I am not happy here in England, and I didn't really lived here, till I went to Sicily. I came back, and I don't find my place here any more. I don't know who I am and I don't knwo what I want. Soemtimes I think maybe I also wish the life like in Italy, and that I can get just in Italy not anywhere else. Now I really wish to go to Spain, but I am afraid I won't find my place there..I feel I liked and ddin't like the same time Italy. I like because of their life style.they can anjoy all moment of the life, but to not to speak any English, and don't care of time to be in time somewhere, and the other is just waiting...Also to have siesta time, when you die, because for sure i want to go shopping, when is siesta time:-)))or I just get hungry exactly that time.

I feel just waist my time here. I don't get any chance to be closer to my dream to work socsial worker, because they don't accept my Hungarian degree...and actually do i really want to do it? when you are far from your profession, maybe you don't really miss it, you forget about it..I don't know, now I don't know anything, just I know becase of to much thinking ,a nd disspaointness I am sick, and my health is just worse...

I also feel I have no time to waist more, and just search what i really want, and where i can be happy...I feel I really should find my place soon. I really need to find it!

Someimts just I am thinkin, why I want to learn Spanish, or yes it would be great to learn other languages, but If I can survive with English?! I just waist my time, because for me its so hard to learn new languages...so slow, and will i use it? can i stay anywhere as a social worker, where they will speak there language... go back to Hungary there is no chance...to hear every time more and more tax, and everybody wants to runaway...o start and study again social work in the country where i want to stay...now because of language just England can be. áhhhh I want to figure out, before I wll have again problems with my teeth!)I usually have got more problem with my teeth when I am stressed!:-(((

how can i be again so confident to know what i want...it was easier...easier to achive that i want , than to figure out what i really want!